I Can Do Bad By Myself.

Hi Blogspot,

We'll it was nice while it lasted. It was AMAZING while it last. :(
I got a little text during English class while i was in instene actress mode. It was from my "Sweet" Alyssa. And it said the words everyone dreds to hear; "Uhm can we talk". My stomach dropped from there. I tried not to think the worse, but of course the worse happened. She broke up with me via text message. I was speechless. I couldn't move, or breathe and I just bursted into tears as I was reading aloud to the class. My friend Alec asked me if I wanted to go outside and he walked me outside and I told him what happend and he just gave me a hug and told me how everything is gonna be okay. He's a real great person who conferts me when I'm upset with relationship problems. I seriously cried for 2 hours. From 4th period to 6th. It was horrible. Everyone was trying to cheer me up at lunch. I got a few laughs but it didn't really help...

Her reason is still confusing. She said cause yesterday when we hung out, she said she felt "odd" and that she can't be more than friends with me. So I gusse that one day, overthrew every other amazing momments we had. I just don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I serisously give up.
And I DGAF about what other people say.

Relationships are completely pointless in my opinion. Nothing last forever. Relationships have absolutly no point to them. Sure you're with someone who makes you the happiest you've ever been in your life and you'd be lucky to call them yours. But I have friends I can call MY friends and will be there for me. I don't need someone else to be my "significant other" to make me happy. Yeah sure I was oh so happy with Alyssa and I thought she felt the same. But all I'm ever gonna be is a friend. So that's all I really need. And people wonder why I'm so afraid to fall in love. This reason right here. Heartbreak is a bitch. I don't need to be in a relationship that has no actual point to it then just to be together. I Can Do Bad By Myself

I don't want to stop being her friend though. I care for her to much to throw her outta my life.
I think i'm always gonna have feelings for her. But that's something I'm gonna have to get the fuck over now huh? I'm just hurt and feel stupid that I actually thought we were gonna last. I gusse Andrew was right when he said "For now". I'm still very hurt and just might be for a bit.
But I gusse Time Heals All Wounds.