One Thousand Kisses

Hiya Blogspot,

Hmmm everyone seems to be switching to Tumbler.
Fuck that. I like blogspot :)

So not much has been happening since my last blog. I went to another rave on the 18th. Puspop.
That was pretty great. I saw a few people I knew there. Some old friends like my friend Monique A.K.A Mimey and Shelby who I met when I was at Natalie's sister's parties. It was fun being there, I was giving people kisses left and right, BUT I was not being a slut about it.
I brought Cody with me cause it was his first rave and he brought a freind. I glad they weren't following the whole night. They did their own thing while I did mine. I met a bunch of new friends. I love making new friends. But it was fun when I was with them. I will fur sure being going to more with them. Well at least Cody, his friend's mum found out about it i gusss. Cody thizzed for the first time that night too. Thank god he didn't act burnt or anything. That would have been a problem. He had to leave early. But good thing he did cause the cops came and shut it down at like 12. So i had no where's to go. So I mobbed with some people to the trolley station. Then hung with some people and long story short, we ended up getting caught up by the cops for being out past cerfew. It was like 2 maybe 3 in the morning. The cop called my mum but she wasn't awake so he left a message. So the people i was with, their mum gave me a ride to Dylan's house. When i got there at like 3:30AM, i threw rocks at his window and asked if I could crash there. So he let me sleep on his couch. He's the best friend for letting me do that. But like two days later my mum actually heard the message so I'm grounded for the rest of the breaak. Sucks. But people are aloud to come over, I'm just not aloud out of the house. So hopefully Dylan is coming over for New Years and since my mum knows I smoke bus we're just gonna toke it up for new years x)

But besides being grounded and shit. Life is just movin along. I will hopefully be switching school. I wanna go to SD Charter so I can hurry up and finish school and leave California and go live back in Denver with my sister. Life will be much easier over there.

Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop

Hey blogspot,

Haven't really wrote in here in awhile. I've been sorta busy and not having a computer could be another problem too. Not much has changed except that I've became closer friends with Cody. Maybe a little to close in my case. You could say I started to develop feelings for him, evening knowing he's gay. But the things he says to me and/or does makes/made me think he isn't fully. And I was stupid enough to think that he liked me saying he would "go straight" for me. He even "asked me out" once. But I don't know what was up with that. He jokes a lot.

(That made me think; I've been asked out 3 times, and then had the person change their mind the next day. iFail)

Well I hung out with him today cause he went to camp over the weekend and I was excited to see him, but he brung some friends with him. One of them left but the other came to Barnes and Nobles with us. We were havin nice time. Then Cody tells me that they were texting each other back and forth and sayin that that guy likes him or some shiit. So I was just like okay whatevers.
Then were walking around Macy's and that guy pulled Cody away and did something. That's when my stomach started hurting and I had to go. I had to go to practice for the play I'm in anyway. He kept apologizing the whole walk to the trolley. I almost started crying while we were walking, but i kept myself together. He kept asking what was wrong. Of course I didn't tell him cause a) that guy was right there and b) casue I didn't wanna start crying in front of him.
So he texted me. And when I was on the bus I told him the honest reason why I got upset was cause I wanted it to be just me and him in the first place and that shiit happing made me super jealous and made me realize how much I actually liked him. It's stupid and I hate it. I started liking him casue I thought I would actually have a chance with him some day. Guess I was wrong....like always. But he is a great friend regardless how I feel about him or visa versa.

On a completely different note, I will have to be without my best friend for a week :(
He went outta town with his parents so he won't be back until this Sunday. I miss him already.
He's not the only person I miss though.
Louise, I Miss You...