Look On The Sunny Side.

Things are finally looking up :)
I had a really bad past few weeks with my mum going crazy and just Cody and I moping around cause nobody loves us.
That's all changed now :)
He found someone
I found someone :)
Her name is Jazzy, and she's great :) We hung out last Thursday and we're just great. I like her and she likes me, So something is gonna happen. But ima wait for when we next hang out, instead of doing via text message or myspace x)

Cody and I are worried about how our friendship will with stand both of us being with someone else. We are both very jealous people. Especially when we hang out with other people. But I made it very clear:
" I like Jazzy but I Love you, friends come first always."
And he said we just have to remind each other that and we'll be fine :)

But in other news I started SD Charter last week and I love it :D
I get to go to school with Sara again :D
I knew things would get better :D

Confessions Of A Broken Heart

Your first heartbreak is the worst.
Your second can be more painful
and same with the third and so on.
Basically, Heartbreak never gets easier. You can't get "used to it" ( like I say I do sometimes).
The best things you could do it wait.
Wait until you can eat again,
Wait until you can breathe again.
Just wait, and take a break.

In this case, spending day to day with your heart break, is not gonna make you feel better. You might think it will, but it won't. If you really need to get over someone, you just need to spend some time away from them.

I'm not only talking to/about someone else,
I'm talking to myself too.

Today just could have went better.

I Could Use Somebody Like You

Hey Blogspott,

Not much has been going on.

Cody walked me to school this morning. That made me really happy that he would get up all early to do that for me :) It was a great start to the day. I.L.M.C ^.^

Last weekend Alyssa came over (finally) and we hung out and went to the mall with Cody. I've missed her sooooo much. It was nice being with her again. Being with her is like taking a happy pill. She makes me instantly smile when I see her. I'm glad I can be there for her when things get rough. It hurts me to see you hurt.
I miss your smile
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Yesterday, I hung out with Dylan after school and we went to his friends house to smoke. We shared two bong loads and I guess I hit it to hard and to much casue I got fucked up high. I hardly remember what happened after wards. I remember we went to our friend Kyle's house, and I kept going in and out of consciousness and we watched a movie, and then Dylan and I left and I don't really remember the bus ride home. Never gonna get that high again. Then when I get home and try to sleep, my mum bust in my room asking for a piece of paper I left at school and when I told her I did, she almost best the shit outta me.
I do believe she has reached the edge of insanity. Shit's weak.


Well SD Charted called back and said I have to go down to Old Town on the 29th to do some shiit or sumthing, idk I wasn't listening haha

Forts in Trees

Hey Blogspot,

So today was a pretty nice day overall. I got to school late and all my geometry teacher said was "Good morning :)". Then I went and saw my therapist at school (yeah i gots one, suck dicks)
And she complemented me about how I carry myself well and she's glad I have such apositive attitude even though my mums a crazy bitch :)
Then after school todaay Cody came to hang out with me, and he came baring gifts :) He brought me a bag of Oreos (cause I loves me some oreos), a box of chocolate, and a cute stuffed elephant. It was really sweet of him :D I.L.M.C<3When I was talking to my therapist, I let her know how my mum makes me feel like such a failure.
But I haven't really noticed how I've kept a positive attitude outside of this home. She pointed it out and it made me feel better about my self.
Better casue I guss I'm pretty good at hiding my feelings...

Turn and Face The Change

Hi blogspot

I seriously HATE change. Everything has to change, and I hate it. Things were so much better way back when. Everything is always better in the past. I wish i had a time machine (doesn't everyone) But just so i can go back to certain times and live them again.
I miss the good old times,

Back when Alyssa and I were inseparable








When Andrew And I Were Conjoined At The Hip










When at school, we had a Group instead of just three people














Even old friends I used to be glued too















I just really hate change, cause I can be content with the most simplest things.
2010 better be one hell of a year, cause if not, I don't see the point.
It better get better,
For all of us.

Fastforward

Hey blogspot,

So today is the start of a new year. Last night Dylan came over and we just toked it up in my room all night. My mum doesn't care but she really knows how to ruin a good high. I think it was bett when she didn't know. I'm quite aggravated with my mum at the momment. But I'ma let go.
She signed me up for SD Charter. So I iz happy.

I really hope 2010 is a better year, 2009 had to much crap. I mean, sure, I've made a bunch of new friends (made some, lost some) and stuff like that but in general, Not a good year.
I just really really hope this year is much better.
I'm not gonna say it's a new year, so new me, I'm just gonna take it like an older me. I'm not gonna change, I'm just adding another year to myself. There may be some improvements along the way though.

But I do have a few New Year Resolutions:

1. Drop a few pounds (maybe lol)
2. Try and focus on school
3. Spend more times with those who need it

That last one is a biggie, cause I feel myself slipping away from some of my bestest friends.
i.e Andrew and Alyssa
I miss them both a lot and haven't gotten around to hanging out with them much. They are two really really good friends, and both have really been there for me. Especially Andrew. I haven't talked to him in like a week. I tried to call him last night to wish him a happy new years but he didn't answer. And Alyssa has been trying to spend some time over here but things keep getting in the waay.

I hope things get better this yearr.