Haven't really wrote in here in awhile. I've been sorta busy and not having a computer could be another problem too. Not much has changed except that I've became closer friends with Cody. Maybe a little to close in my case. You could say I started to develop feelings for him, evening knowing he's gay. But the things he says to me and/or does makes/made me think he isn't fully. And I was stupid enough to think that he liked me saying he would "go straight" for me. He even "asked me out" once. But I don't know what was up with that. He jokes a lot.
(That made me think; I've been asked out 3 times, and then had the person change their mind the next day. iFail)
Well I hung out with him today cause he went to camp over the weekend and I was excited to see him, but he brung some friends with him. One of them left but the other came to Barnes and Nobles with us. We were havin nice time. Then Cody tells me that they were texting each other back and forth and sayin that that guy likes him or some shiit. So I was just like okay whatevers.
Then were walking around Macy's and that guy pulled Cody away and did something. That's when my stomach started hurting and I had to go. I had to go to practice for the play I'm in anyway. He kept apologizing the whole walk to the trolley. I almost started crying while we were walking, but i kept myself together. He kept asking what was wrong. Of course I didn't tell him cause a) that guy was right there and b) casue I didn't wanna start crying in front of him.
So he texted me. And when I was on the bus I told him the honest reason why I got upset was cause I wanted it to be just me and him in the first place and that shiit happing made me super jealous and made me realize how much I actually liked him. It's stupid and I hate it. I started liking him casue I thought I would actually have a chance with him some day. Guess I was wrong....like always. But he is a great friend regardless how I feel about him or visa versa.
On a completely different note, I will have to be without my best friend for a week :(He went outta town with his parents so he won't be back until this Sunday. I miss him already.
He's not the only person I miss though.
Louise, I Miss You...
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