You Had Time.

Hi Blogspot,

Today was a pretty lazy day at Andrew's. Nothing interesting.
Alyssa spent the night at my house the other night. We watched "Identity" then got high then watched "Halloween". Then fell asleep. When we woke up and I made breakfast for her again :)
We watched the rest of "Halloween" and then chilled and talked. Then we went and smoked again in my bathroom. That was really fun. "DID YOU HEAR THAT?!"
We had a great time when she was here. I was soooo close to asking her out. Like that was seriously all I thought about all that day and last night and the beginning of today.
I was commenting her today and told her I was in a INTENSE THINKING MODE! And she asked what I was thinking about. So I told her I was thinking about her and me and how I wanted to be with her. I had REALLY bad butterflys in my tummy waiting for her to reply. They all fell to the pit of my stomach when she replied. She asked if I would be mad if she said she wanted a little bit more time. I was kinda confused. And I still am. I was gonna ask what for, but I decided to just tell her I had all the time in the world. Which I do and I'm patient. It's just that I think waay to much about things. And when I do think, It's always bad. I always have negative thoughts about things like this. It sucks really bad. Over thinking shit is bad.
I hate falling for people so fast.
The best I can do is wait. I really hate the waiting game. I've been playing it waaay to much this year.
I hope this won't turn out like the Rebecca situation. Speaking of which..her and her boyfriend broke up. I feel bad for her cause I knew how she felt about him and still does. But now he can't hurt her anymore.
If Alyssa and I hadn't gotta so close, I would have jumped at that chance. But we did and I won't and now I'm gonna wait for Alyssa and see where it goes. Hopfully a different route than Rebecca and I. That one had no chance in Hell. But maybe Alyssa and I will be different. But if not...I don't know. I'm just hoping it all works out in the end.